Testify Tuesday: Use Your Gift

For as long as I’m led, I’ll be doing “I learned”…posts..Some may be deeply personal but writing is therapeutic…it is my hope that these help someone else as well…

I learned…

Atlanta is my Jersuleum (for now anyway)…scriptural reference for the good samaritan…there are times when I leave and I’m good and everything goes well and the there are other times I leave and have a really difficult trip and as we are returning I literally feel a release…I feel happier…at peace…clothed… And frankly I’m conflicted because I do not like living in Atlanta, one bit!
I learned…

I’ve been present but not actively engaged…I haven’t missed the prayer call for an extended period of time until last week, when somehow I couldn’t get up before 6:30..this was the first time in eight months I was unfaithful, so what was the problem…well the truth is I was nasty, canterkorous, and plain old hard to get along with during those five days…I think I hid the Word a little too deeply in my heart cuz I sure was as the ol’ church folks would say, “lettin’ the devil use me” 😀
I learned…

I’m blessed beyond measure…scripture reference (use familial examples…)
I learned…

That all people don’t view social media as I do.  I saw the term “show pony” on a highly respected mogul’s site (I won’t reference her here because she may not want to be associated with my post) and it was like yep that’s it…now I vacillate between the “workhorse” and whether I choose to even leave the stable.  Admittedly, I’ve been in the stable a long time, I started a business page and have done NOTHING with it because I was throwing a temper-tantrum with life (until yesterday when I truly embraced the truth that I am blessed beyond measure) but believe me I don’t have the energy to be a “show pony”.  I mean to each their own, I just didn’t appreciate it the concept until now.
I learned…

Marriage is second hardest only to parenting…only difference is one is a choice that I no longer choose to make…
I learned…

That (seemingly) good things do happen to not so great people despite what you’re told… #nojudgement #nohate…truthfully I do not want to have a conversation about grace or favor because those are not the people I’m talking about (hence the word SEEMINGLY in parenthesis)…
I learned…

To be thankful to for my upbringing… For being in church from sun up to sun down and on the weekdays too. I can now appreciate the decline in attendance and so forth but more than that, I appreciate that in all those time I showed up I forged a relationship with Him and I began to take Him home with me, and to school with me.  He went to the club with me when I use to go or before I was married and I was at that dude’s house, He was there too…See even when I thought I left Him in that building…He was with me because not only were my grandmother and mother interceding on my behalf but He was going to be sure to get a proper ROI!
I learned…

Provision often comes once you’ve already begun the work.  It’s practical to think that I’ll follow my dream when…but when one stretches beyond themselves they often find everything they need on the journey rather than at the starting line…
I learned…

Personal tragedy propel some people into their destiny.  In listening to a young widow’s story this one time, I was ashamed of myself for thinking for a split second that her husband dying was one of the best things that happened to her.  Now of course I’m not an insensitive prick, so I didn’t mean it like that.  I was thinking of all the things she had accomplished because she decided to actively live as a testament to life instead of simply awaiting her own death. I wondered if she would have done all of these amazing exploits if he were still living?

I find that, so many people shrink and find solace in grief.  There has been so much grief in this world lately.  And I am not just referring to grieving a physical death.  How about us who are grieving because a friend abandoned us when we needed them most, or a loved one walked out, or your children who have seemingly lost their minds and the good sense you thought you taught them, or maybe you are just not where you expected to be in a particular area in your life.   

I found out however that this grief is temporary.  Pain is necessary.  Truth is our very destiny is wrapped up in how we get through these tough times.  I don’t know about you but I plan on living my very best life, everyday that I am blessed to have an opportunity to live it!

The Present is a Gift…

-She 💋

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